kebab1806: (gay porn)
OK, so I've got cocky and I'm using pics for the links to the porn I post. However, I'm aware that some people might not want to see these, so not only am I friends locking the posts, I'm gonna put anyone who wants to see these into a separate group.

If you wanna see these posts, please comment here and I'll add you to the group.

All comments are screened, but you can always PM me if you feel more comfortable with that :)
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Yes I'm back and moaning again, sorry. I'm just a little miffed at something my sister said to me today. It's in their will that if, god forbid, anything happens to them that the children would go and stay with his sister. My sister informed me today that she wanted to get this changed now, apparantly they don't feel that his sister raises her child the way they would. They're not criticising her or anything just that there's different ideas involved, you know how it is. She then goes on to say that even though she doesn't want her sister in law raising them, she can't think of anyone else suitable. Now don't get me wrong, I don't have kids for a reason, that being I don't want them, but if anything happened and the girls were left without parents I would step up cos I love them. I kinda asked why I wasn't suitable, I know asking for trouble right? Anyway she said in a round about way that I couldn't look after myself how was I gonna raise two kids.

Now I know I still live with the olds, but thats largely due to the fact that Mum can't cope on her own with Dad. I've tried it, I moved out for nearly a year and Mum got really ill from the stress so I moved back. I could afford to move out if I got rid of my car etc which I would happily do if I could.

So the long and short of it is, I now feel like my little sister is treating me like a child, I'm not happy about it, it's made me cry and the more I think about it the worse I get. So yeah that's it, just needed to get it off my chest really, so if you've read this far sorry for unloading on ya.

In other news, the sponsored walk/run went well Saturday, thank you to everyone that sponsored me, we've raised nearly £4,000 in total with the raffle, auction was loads of fun and well worth the agony I've been in this week.

I hope all my lovely flist are doing well

*hugs each and every one of ya*
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Hi guys

Sorry for not being around recently, I've been lurking but haven't had much time to do anything substantial. I'm gonna try and post more often, but I keep saying that so I wouldn't hold your breath.

Anyway the reason for this post.

About four months ago a colleague at work, that I classed as a friend was diagnosed with cancer, he died last month and has left a hole that still has me tearing up everytime I think about him. My work has organised a "Fun Run" on November 19th to raise money for the hospice that took care of Dave at the end and I am taking part. Admittedly I am only walking as my knees will not allow me to run, the total length will be a minimum of a marathon with each participant running/walking a mile.

So here it is I'm after sponsorship, I know it's not the most ideal of times what with Christams not far off but it is a really good charity, that helps a lot of people. If any of you wonderful people would like to contribute there is a link just click on it and leave a message.

*hugs my flist*


Jul. 30th, 2011 03:36 pm
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Hi ya

Does anyone out there have a Dreamwidth account? If there is do you know if it's possible to crosspost from LJ to Dreamwidth or is it just from Dreamwidth to LJ. Although if LJ keeps having problems maybe it would be better to post to Dreamwidth and have it crosspost to LJ....hmmmm.

So second question, can I update Dreamwidth with my recent LJ posts?

Anyone that wants to keep in touch with me if the worst happens and LJ disappears you can get me over on Dreamwidth as kebab1806 or at which is also my Windows Live messenger addie.

Hope everyone's having great weekends.

Ooops I nearly forgot Twitter, I'm kebab0677 over there :D
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Hi ya *waves*

I've returned from my trip overseas, I'm now back in civilisation and I'll never complain about my internet speed ever again. Having a whole week without an internet connection was a lot harder than I thought it was gonna be, kinda felt like I'd lost a limb or something.

The holiday was not as bad as I thought it'd be but still not great, I'm glad I'm home and can go back to my nasty habits. I'm also glad I can catch up with you guys, I missed you lot *hugs ya*

So what have I missed, any juicy gossip? But whatever you do, don't spoil Leverage for me, I'm downloading it as I'm typing, should only take another three or four hours, not that I'm complaining.


Jun. 24th, 2011 06:51 pm
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Just a quick post to say that I'm on Twitter as kebab0677, if anyone's interested I'll probably be tweeting everday of my holiday :D

Have great weekends.

You Guys

Jun. 19th, 2011 03:04 pm
kebab1806: (Misha - Happy Dance)
I love you guys, my flist is awesome :D

Thank you [ profile] lady_simoriah and [ profile] dont_hate_me01 for the lovely v-gifts :)

Thank you [ profile] jensen_is_love, [ profile] adorkable74 and [ profile] bad_peppermint for the wonderful messages, they meant a lot to me.

Thank you to [ profile] alienat for the beautiful end to a wonderful fic, Christmas and birthday pressie rolled into one. If you want to read it it's here, also for the very naughty gift voucher, so many things to spend it on but which to choose :)

Last but not least a massive thank you to [ profile] elsewherewolf and [ profile] eviltwin for the brilliant Puck/Jensen fic they wrote me, any Glee/SPN fans need to go and read it here, the extremely naughty gift voucher, the wonderfully yummy half naked men, the Ten Inch Heroes DVD and the lovely messages :)

I had a brilliant day, I spent the morning at an arts & crafts superstore which was like being in heaven, then spent the afternoon just doing stuff I wanted to do :D

I'm off on hols next Saturday, so if I suddenly disappear for a weeek that's why. The clever people that picked the cottage didn't check that it had wifi so I'm gonna be cut off for a whole week.....not too sure how I'll cope.

Anyway I love you guys

*hugs all of ya*

Room 42

Jun. 6th, 2011 06:36 pm
kebab1806: (That was dramatic)
TITLE : Room 42
PAIRING : Jared/Jensen
WARNINGS/ENTICEMENTS : only the usual m/m sex (duh), voyeurism, dubcon (if you squint and look at it upside down), really bad dirty talk, rimming…that’s it I think.
SUMMARY: Jensen’s horny and Jared’s just passing by.
DISCLAIMER: No one in this story belongs to me, trust me if they did I wouldn't be writing about it ;p
A/N : This is my first attempt at writing anything and I blame it all on [ profile] eviltwin, this is all for you hon :D Any useful concrit is more than welcome, I could do with some pointers.

Read more... )
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Hi guys

So I apparantly I still suck at posting, I am sorry guys I mean to but things tend to run away from me and then it's months and I haven't posted :(

I thought I'd post now to update you on what's going on with me. I'll start with work cos that's a major part of my life at the moment. Basically it sucks, there are more redundancies going to be made. I'm fairly confident I'm not one of them, nobody else knows my job (I've kinda made sure I'm very difficult to replace), but it does mean more work being piled on me. I'm now bringing work home with me at the weekends to catch up on what I haven't had time to do. This is on top of working nine and ten hour days during the week. So yeah, no free time for me \o/

My depression seems to have faded for now. I'm not sure how long it's gone for but I do know that I have two very special people to thank for chasing it away by giving me things to look forward to, [ profile] eviltwin and [ profile] elsewherewolf I love you two more than I can tell you.

Now on to more cheerful things. I may be posting a little fic evil pulled out of me, it's done I just need to read through and make sure it's ok. As soon as I get a second opinion I will post it here and then hide under a very large rock :D

For those of you who follow the porn I post, I haven't abandoned you. I am uploading them so I can post them, but they are taking forever. If I start uploading them when I get in of an evening, they are not done by the time I wanna go to sleep, so it's weekends only. I contacted my ISP about the speed and it's due to the exchange being to busy and the speeds out here being slower than a bloody tortoise.

I also want to change my userpic, I need a change, what shall I go with? Help me out here guys, I can't choose between them.

Has anyone been watching Game Of Thrones or Spartacus: Blood and Sand? How about Chicago Code? Game Of Thrones is brilliant, I love Sean Bean have ever since I was in my early teens. Blood and Sand? What can I say, gladiators mmmmmmm. Naked gladiators...and I'm talking full frontal.....guh. Naked gladiators wrestling....hallelujah. There's even some m/m sex \o/

I can't believe they've cancelled Chicago Code after the first season, I was really getting into it :(

Anyway enough rambling. How's my flist doing?

Happy Days

Apr. 28th, 2011 02:28 pm
kebab1806: (Misha - Happy Dance)
Hi everyone, so I'm back, did ya miss me?

Just got back from a lovely couple of days with [ profile] eviltwin and [ profile] elsewherewolf, I love you guys, I haven't felt this chilled in a long time. If you think you're getting away with getting me hooked on Glee then think again, I will get you back sometime when you least expect it :D

In other news I got my new ethernet adapters yesterday, got it all set up today, and bingo I have internet \o/

There will be porn for some of you soon now that I'm up and running at normal speed and it's not gonna take me two days to upload one video.

So how is everyone, I've missed you guys.
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Ok, I need help, I've turned my computer on today and it won't connect to the internet. As you can see my phone still connects and my parents computer's still ok. This leads me to think it's my computer, I know my deductive skills are on fire lol.

I've updated my drivers, which is what Windows helpfully suggested and it's still not working. It's not even showing up on the list of available networks. Then again neither is next doors. I've gone back to a restore point earlier in the week when I know damn well it worked, nadda. I'm now scanning it in Safe Mode but apart from some cookies I'm pretty sure I'm clean. I was logged on last night no problems. My computer hates me, it knows I wanna watch SPN.

Does anyone have any suggestions? Please this is driving me insane.

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In memory of family and friends who have lost the battle with cancer; and in support of the ones who continue to conquer it! Post this on your LJ if you know someone who has or had cancer. 93% won't copy and paste this. Will you?
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Hi guys

Just wanted to let you know that I am still here, even though I haven't posted anything since last month. I have been lurking, but not as much as I usually do :(

I won't bore you with my problems, but I will say that I'm trying to get things organised so I've got more time to do what I want and not what others want. So here's my list of things I have promised for people on my flist, please could someone give me a kick up the arse so I actually get these done.

1) Pdf's that I'm waaayyyy behind on, sorry. - DONE :D
2) Porn, I'm looking at different websites to get a bit more variation in my posts, the research is so hard, but I'll do it for you guys ;p
3) Catch up and comment on all the wonderful posts you guys have made.
4) Continue writing, I've done two chapters but have stalled recently :(

Lastly, while I'm here, I want to say a couple of thank you's

[ profile] eviltwin and [ profile] elsewherewolf thank you for an amazing day in London, I had so much fun and felt loads better in myself, even though I was knackered, you two are true friends *hugs ya* we will be doing this again sometime and I promise I'll try not to embarrass any hot waiters or you guys.

[ profile] heartsonwings thank you for the card, I'm trying to work out how we can meet up soon.

[ profile] alienat and [ profile] lady_simoriah thank you for your kind words and encouragement, they mean more to me than I can put into words.

I honestly don't know what I would do without all of your support, it's been a tough year and I've only managed to keep it together because of my lovely flist.

I'm gonna go now before I start blubbing.

Have great weekends people.

Hit me

Feb. 18th, 2011 08:20 pm
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Leave a ONE WORD comment that you think best describes me. It can only be one word. No more than one word. Then copy & paste this post to your own journal so I can leave a word about you.

Stolen from [ profile] darthnikki and [ profile] eviltwin cos I need cheering up.


Feb. 18th, 2011 05:49 pm
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So I went to the docs today and I've found out why I've been so tired and emo all the time. Apparantly I am depressed, I've refused to go on medication cos I don't really want to start that. I do have to go for counselling though and I can't tell you how much I'm looking forward to that.....not.

Anyway, just wanted to let you guys know what's going on and why I may not seem as cheerful as normal.


Feb. 17th, 2011 04:44 pm
kebab1806: (Mmm)
OK, so I've kinda started writing a fic. I've only got two chapters written and have hardly got started but....I kinda wanted to see if it was any good.

So flist, the decision is yours cos I've been going round and round in circles all day. Do I...

a) Post the two chapters I have written and then post the others as I write them, which could be months?


b) Keep on writing, hope to god it doesn't send anyone to sleep and post it all at once.

Help. Oh yeah, nearly forgot, it's unbeta'd so if any kind person out there wouldn't mind and has the time, I would be grateful.


Feb. 17th, 2011 09:29 am
kebab1806: (Fancy A Fag)
I was just wondering what everyone's opinion was on sharing eBooks? Does everyone feel like it's the same as sharing a paperback with a friend or do you feel like it's on the same lines as video piracy?

I'm asking because I wanted to get a couple of ebooks for a friend for her birthday, I was gonna get gift certificates but none of the sites I want to use seem to have them. This would mean buying them downloading them and emailing them to her, but I know the temptation would be huge for me to read them as well :)

So come on, hit me with your thoughts on the matter.
kebab1806: (People Skills)
Happy Valentines Day guys

Just wanted to let you know how much I love each and everyone of you. Thank you for your friendship :)


Jan. 29th, 2011 04:33 pm
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I've just started re-jigging a few posts, so if I'm filling up your inbox sorry. Hopefully it won't be too many :D
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I want to apologise to everyone for being such a miserable cow recently, to be honest with you it’s not gonna get better anytime soon.

All this week I’ve had a dodgy gut, I won’t go into details but needless to say it wasn’t pleasant. I’ve also had what I can only describe as a feeling like someone’s sticking my voodoo doll's stomach with needles. Cos this has gone on all week and has been disturbing my sleep I went to the doctors today.

I saw a very nice female doctor who’s around my age and she was extremely thorough. She asked soooo many questions. Could I be pregnant? Was I in a relationship? Why wasn’t I? Did it upset me that I wasn’t? and on, and on, and on. She asked all about my periods, my weight and my moods. At one point she asked if there was anything I wanted to talk about as I looked a little teary. True to form I burst into tears, don’t ask why I can’t tell you.

Anyway long and short is that the pain in my stomach, my weight, my periods and my moods (read teary spells) could all be realted and I’m having all the tests run on my blood possible. I’ll be surprised if I have any left by the time they’ve finished, so we’ll see if that turns anything up.

She offered to talk if I needed to get anything off my chest, but I’m not comfortable doing that with a complete stranger face to face. I think she knows as well as I do that everything’s getting to me again and that it’s affecting my health. So I’m gonna type it all out here, cos you guys are awesome and will, hopefully pull me out of this slump.

OK, I can’t remember if I’ve posted anything about this here before so I’ll start at the beginning. I’m still living at home with the parents, they’re both retired and need some looking after. I have one sister, Karen, who has two beautiful little girls, Emma (4 in May) and Lauren (17 months).

My Dad is an alcoholic and has been since I was in my early teens, so we’re looking at coming up for 20 years. He’s also a control freak, everything has to be his way, he cannot be wrong. He also twists everything so it affects him, like we’re all bit players in the movie of his life. He’s already been hospitalized once because of the drinking and it’s escalated again recently. He is horrible to my Mum and treats her like a slave, she can’t do anything for herself without getting an earful from him. I would class it as mental abuse, something I think is just as bad as physical abuse. I remember one day quite a few years back I was holding my sisters new puppy, I mean brand new as young as you can get them. He wanted to get past and shoved me face first into the wall, luckily I managed to protect the puppy from getting squished by me. Unfortunately I saw red and kicked out at him back, something I am not proud of. He retaliated by slapping me round the face to which both myself and my sister punched him in the face at the same time, I know for a fact I pulled my punch, realizing what I was doing before I made contact but I doubt she did as she’s the one with the temper. Now as I said, I’m not proud of this, but he has left me alone since. He tends to do and say stuff when he thinks I can’t see or hear him. Karen’s a different matter, he picks an argument with her every time she comes round….which is a lot. He’s also really mean to Emma and Lauren and neither of them like spending time with him.

Now for my sister, she has never liked her own company and her husband works most weekends for extra money. This means that she is round here every weekend, with both the girls, who do not leave me alone. Don’t get me wrong I love that they love spending time with me, but I need my weekends, I have things I need to get done and unwind from the week. I have asked her to limit the time she spends with us at the weekends, but got told that if I didn’t want to see the kids then that was fine….my family specializes in guilt trips. So from 08:00-17:30 they are here, by the time they leave and I clear up after the kids I’m ready to drop.

You all know about the holiday, so I won’t go into that again. What’s next….oh yeah, work. I’m the supervisor of the invoicing team, I’m in charge of making sure targets are hit. The people in the team are not team players, they’re only looking out for themselves, which makes my job sooo hard. Yes it’s stressful but no more than I’m sure some of yours are.

OK, the dreaded topic of relationships. I have been single and celibate for what I can only guess is about 8 years. I’m not the sort of person guys ask out. I’m more the one they treat like one of the guys. Normally being single doesn’t bother me cos I really can’t see where I’d fit time in for anybody else. But recently I’ve been feeling a little lonely, it’d be nice to have someone to cuddle when I feel like this, or for someone to look after me for a change instead of the other way round. I’m gonna be honest and say that I don’t miss the sex, I’ve had better orgasms on my own than with any of my exs.

If anyone out there has anything that’ll cheer me up please feel free, I’m sick to death of crying the whole damn time.

Enough doom and gloom now, just wanted to explain why I’m not my normal self atm.

Have great weekends and I love you all.


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